How my heart breaks

My tears can't stop flowing, whenever I'm all alone. In school, on bus, at home. Anywhere, everywhere.
Memories of us, come gushing through, every lil scenes trigger le tear buds. It's probably really all over now and all our memories exist to compensate Goodbye. I can't have you back anymore, no matter how regretful and remorseful I am. I didn't mean to speak in such a harsh tone but it would probably make you give up on me, totally. Please forgive me.

Honestly, I was cracking my brain trying to decode your tweet. Mmhyatwbe (: . Yeah, I said idc what you tweet and its none of my business. But I unknowingly spent hours trying to decode and look for clues in our conversation. I was so silly. And dumb. I still dk what you're trying to say but I think I managed to make out what's 'yatwbe'. "You are the worst bastard ever" ? I have no idea what's Mmh... I still didn't quite believe you tweeted that... But my heart shattered when I managed to make out those letters though it might not be what I thought. And you thinking I'm fake, and me being tgt with you is a plotted revenge... Oh Lord, any idea how hurt I was? The first instinct that came to me was to just be sarcastic and play along with you. So I agreed. That everything were fake. Me loving you, fake. Even though I said so.... I believe that we both know it's not true. It was just another 'better' excuse for us to walk separate ways.

Maybe it's God will that we can't be together. Tired of trying, tired of loving, tired of crying. I'm so so so tired and you probably are too. In that case, there isn't any reason for us to fight for each other back... I hope you will get over it soon and don't ever starve yourself or do anything harmful to your body. I hope someone out there can treat you better, love you more, cherish you hard and are able to lead you out of this misery soon. It'd better be a guy. Lesbian relationship don't last, at least not in Singapore.

I probably wouldn't love anyone else in the world more than loving you. I guess I will never be able to fulfill my ambition afterall. My world, will never be complete because this somebody had left forever.