My something is our future. My somebody is you.

Pw questions out. Sch is draining me a lil bit more every single fucking day. My motivation of carrying on studying is leaving me a lil bit more day by day. Why the hell is studying such a difficult chore? Why can't studying be as simple as playing a game of Tic-Tac-Toe...?

Sometimes, I just hate living.
Cause it's tiring.

However, I pressed on for a reason. Well, what could my reason be other than You?
Hahaha, sometimes I feel silly and question myself if everything would be worthwhile at the end. What if one day, you break my heart and then so suddenly, I'm at a loss without any direction? What's gonna happen? I dare not even think. But most of the times, I only feel that I am still alive because I am fighting for something, with somebody.

People ask me,"Jas, why are you living for somebody else?" I answered,"Because without this somebody, I'm really... ... really nothing."

Yeah, people laughed and people got worried. Worried because they feel I'm too naive as to think that 'Things do last forever' and would fall really hard if one day I finally realized,"Nothing ever last". C'mon friends, I know the phrase "Nothing ever last" and experienced it before, I just don't feel like believing it and it would be really sad and I would be filled with regrets if I don't give it a go now. Even if our end really comes, at least I could tell myself, "At least I've tried"

Yeah, I survived without you before. But now that I have you, all the more I don't wish to die. Like duh obviously. I love you so much, I just hope you can feel it.

I'm so sorry this post came off so randomly and full of emotions. And maybe a lil kinda disgusting or exaggerating or perhaps mushy and cliche...... But then, this is how I really feel. All along. I hope I didn't scare you off, thinking that I'm an overly possessive person or being over crazily in love with you. Haha, as I have said, I'm just trying to express how much I love you. If one day, just one day, you fall in love with somebody else, I promise I would be good and not poke my nose into your life ever again. At least you are happy and that's what you really want. Even though I'd probably be in despair.

All I want for this decade are:

Complete this mother fucking A levels smoothly, pursue a common uni degree with you and get a well-paid job that will help me move one step nearer to my ambition.

& All I want in this life, no matter how short or long, is:

;A happy future of our own.
;I want to live in a yacht with you when we are in the sixties, till we die.

#It's a dedication of my heartfelt words. To you.